Angels from Heaven

It is every working parent’s nightmare when they see the number flashing on the phone is from “Childcare” or school.  Last Thursday when I received that dreadful phone call to say that my 2 year old has had an accident in the childcare, my heart skipped a beat.  My little boy runs… he never walks… apparently he has run into a bookshelf and cut the corner of his eye. I don’t know how I drove myself to the childcare, but somehow I did and when I saw the extent of the injury, I felt sick in my stomach.  There was a deep cut just above my little one’s left eye and the skin was split open. The cut was so deep and I shuddered with fright when I knew there was just a hairline difference between injury to his eyes and where the cut was.

My husband worked an hour away from where we were, and there was an immediate need to take him to the hospital and there was no way we could wait til he came to help me out.  My mind was frozen, and fear and hopelessness took over me.  I just didn’t know how I could put a bleeding child into car seat and drive him to the hospital by myself.

At that time the teachers from the childcare gathered around me and one by one they started to get a plan together whilst my mind was frozen with disbelief, horror and shock.

The teachers travelled with me to the hospital, whilst I drove with anguish and anxiety.We don’t have immediate family here, this was a crucial time where we needed that moral & physical support. When I rang my friends for help, no one was available to help. But God sent his angels as the childcare teachers, started to visit the hospital and help me around. Whilst my little boy  was being stitched up, there were all these teachers around his bed comforting him. All of them appeared like angels to me. “Thank You Creative Play Early Learning Centre”.

I could see the genuine concern, love and affection they had for my son.  They did not leave us until the entire procedure was done.  The care and concern did not stop there, The angels from heaven (Kinder teachers) kept messaging me constantly to check on my little one through the night and the calls continued the following morning.  They cooked food for my kids, they came home to visit him, they brought presents and handmade cards to cheer him up and most importantly would talk to me every day to help me think through the process of ongoing care, review sessions with the hospital etc. I just have a professional relationship with the teachers, but what they gave back to us can only be through an orchestration of GOD!!!

The bible says: There shall no evil befall you, neither shall any plague come near your dwelling. For he shall give his angels charge over you, to keep you in all your ways. They shall bear you up in their hands, lest you dash your foot against a stone. Psalm 91

Sometimes we feel that we are in a place, a situation where you feel you are all alone and there is no help. Even the people who you think are friends dissapear when you are hardest hit !! It can be difficult to trust God when our lives are be-set with troubles. This was one of those moments where I felt all alone and I felt I have been hit again and I had no strength in me to act. The enemy often gets to you by using something or someone that is so close to your heart.

But God was right there with me…He sent his angels to ensure throughout the whole ordeal we were supported.For he will command his angels concerning you to guard you in all your ways. Psalm 91:11 

As we go through trials, God asks us to trust that He knows what He is doing.  His ability and wisdom is far beyond our comprehension.  It is as if God is saying: “Just trust me”. God says, Just hold my hand and walk with me.  At times we will go through trials, we will not understand why.  God calls on us to trust Him. He knows what He is doing; this has not caught Him by surprise.

My help comes from the LORD, the Maker of heaven and earth. Psalm 121:2

My son is currently fighting an infection in the area where he had the cut, I am writing this as I am praying and believing for a super natural healing. It is easy to trust god when everything is going right, but I am placing my trust in the supernatural when in the natural things don’t seem to go right.

Whatever happens, nothing shall hurt the believer; though trouble and affliction may come but it will never destroy you, though for the present it be not joyous but grievous, by prayer constantly call upon him. His promise is, that he will in due time deliver the believer out of trouble, and in the mean time he will be with you in midst your trouble.

Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the LORD your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.” Deuteronomy 31:6

Forgiving is a Choice

This year has been one of those years where I  faced so many unexpected challenges and trials from all aspects. Each time I bounced back from one thing, the enemy attacked me with something else. My faith in god was shaken by these events and I started to feel so down and depressed as I faced challenge one after the other.

Earlier on in the year, I was betrayed by someone who I trusted and was very close to my heart. I was truly shattered by this incident. It had an impact on my whole Family.  Whilst I don’t want to go into details about the extent of this incident, this affected my entire family and the extended family. Everyone was suffering some sort of emotional depression as a result of this incident including my kids.

Betrayal by anyone is hard to deal with; it creates bitterness, anger, depression, loneliness and abandonment. Whilst the family was dealing with this, we went through a series of other struggles one after the other… Job Changes, harassment at workplace, further family crisis, sickness in the family and so it continued…… As a result my 7 year old started having nightmares and anxiety attacks which was very hard to deal with. The family was torn apart.

Each time something happened I would scream asking the lord “where are you god? How could you let this happen to me? What did I do to deserve this ?

I knew that there was nothing I could do to stop or control what happens to me. When the son of god could be betrayed by his friend Judas with a Kiss, How could we escape betrayal?  No matter what the circumstances are , betrayal itself is very painful to deal with. The Bible says “I have said these things to you, that in me you may have peace. In the world you will have tribulation. But take heart; I have overcome the world.” John 16:33

Whilst the above word from the lord is a promise, when unexpected events happen one after the other, the first reaction is fear ,dread, disbelief, pain, anger etc….. But although these trials are unexpected, they are not accidents. For Christians, there are no accidents. All accidents are God’s appointments.

We are creatures of Habits…it is so easy to replay the events in your head over and over again and ask god why god why and try and reason, blame, get bitter and angry. After all these emotions make up a human composition. Whilst my mind was a battle field with all the negative emotions,  I had to deliberately choose to control my attitude, and my reaction to the events by calling on the following promises of god. I had to learn to let go, Forgive and let god.

 “Blessed is the man who remains steadfast under trial, for when he has stood the test he will receive the crown of life, which God has promised to those who love him.” James 1:12

“Do not fear what you are about to suffer. Behold, the devil is about to throw some of you into prison, that you may be tested, and for ten days you will have tribulation. Be faithful unto death, and I will give you the crown of life.” Rev 2:10

I took up fasting and praying for many days and the lord asked me to forgive and let go. It was hard, I had to go against my natural instinct and habit to obey the voice of the holy spirit to forgive this person.

Forgiving is a choice!!! Not an emotion. When you decide to forgive…. god will give you the grace to TRULLY forgive and let go. I had to make that choice to forgive… it wasn’t easy, but the peace that filled my heart was unsurmountable. All the negative emotions associated to the event left me little by little. I was set free from anger, bitterness hopelessness.

I was able to empower all involved to forgive the person involved and the peace in our family has returned.  The family is much stronger than ever before.

Forgiveness is the greatest blessing of all… it is the key to freedom.. And it is a choice!

When Jesus was in the garden of Gethsemane, he asked the lord, “Father, if you are willing, please take this cup of suffering away from me. Yet I want your will to be done, not mine.”Luke 22:42 If Jesus didn’t make that choice to obey his father’s will we would not have been set free.

I encourage all of you who are facing some sort of bitterness, anger, betrayal to surrender it all to the lord. Replaying hurt over and over again controls “you” until you become addicted to the hurt.  It can stop you from fulfilling god’s purpose and plan for your life.

Even if you don’t feel like it… make a choice to forgive and god will give you the grace to do the rest and be set free.

The love of Jesus can shed light on your difficulties and bring about a change in your perspective. Only if you will let him.

Ask for a God moment in your life and see how it transforms you.

Let Go and Let God!!!